My Story

At age 19 I was diagnosed with endometriosis, a non life-threatening disorder that sometimes causes infertility. The news didn't bother me. I didn't have to take medications, follow a strict diet or take up exercising. It wasn't until after my second surgery (at age 21) to remove ovarian cysts that I started to get concerned about the limitations of this disorder. I was then engaged to be married when my doctor said "I can't exactly write out a prescription for you to conceive, but you might want to try soon." She explained that sometimes a pregnancy would cause the endometriosis to lay dormant for nine months and sometimes cure itself. She also said that I had the reproductive organs of a 30-year-old and my best bet for having a baby would be now. After sharing this with my fiance, he said, "What better time to try than on our honeymoon."

Well the honeymoon came and went and nothing happened. Two years later I still wasn't pregnant. My doctor referred us to a specialist to take an "aggressive approach." I was put on a low dose of clomid and worked my way up to the highest dose possible, still without results. We got a second opinion only to be told to save our money since IVF was our only chance at conceiving. To a young couple struggling to meet needs, this was devastating. While still on clomid another cyst appeared and once again surgery was scheduled to remove it. I was put on other fertility drugs after the surgery and nothing happened. By this time the holidays were fast approaching and we were draining our bank accounts on doctor visits and medications not to mention draining our emotional accounts as well. We decided to take a break from all the "action" and regroup at the beginning of the new year. It was then that I got on my knees in the bedroom that was to become a nursery, looked out the window and cried out to the Lord. I asked for patience, understanding and peace. I also asked for a baby. I felt hopeless and I couldn't imagine myself as a mother or having a baby. That night I got out my Bible and looked up the word "barren" in the concordance. What I found gave me hope, courage and patience to wait on the Lord and His perfect will.